i am the meaning of mean

Once upon a time, a long long time ago..My aunt was married to a man who seemed to be very nice..but he wasn't..he was a liar and a con man. He went blind after not taking care of his diabetes..and hurt a lot of people in my family. Now, he's moved on (thankfully)...But sometimes I can't help jabbing at things that really irk me. I know, it was ugly..I won't do it again.